My weight has never been an easy thing for me. It’s fluctuated a lot. As of right now, I’m about 267lbs. It’s not the most I’ve weighed, but it’s definitely not healthy either. Losing weight for me is not about being super thin, or wearing a tiny size of clothes. It’s about being healthy and knowing that I’ll be around to see my son grow up, and be able to run around with him.
When I was younger, I was thin, and never really worried about my weight. I weighed 135lbs, and fit into a juniors size 5 until my senior year of college. It was right around when I turned 20 that I started gaining some weight. At the time, I just figured it was the stress of senior year of college, and not working out quite as much. By the end of my senior year, I weighed 155, and was a size 9. I was still ok with my body at this weight/size. I felt good with how I looked, and although I wasn’t as thin, I was healthy.
PCOS Rears its Ugly Head
If you know anything about PCOS (polycystic ovarian syndrome), then you’ve probably heard that it can cause rapid weight gain. This happened to me. I went from 135lbs-155lbs-190lbs within two years. Throughout this time, I tried dieting and working out more. At one point I was eating 1300 calories and working out every day for 45-60 minutes, and I was still gaining weight. Nothing was working for me, and I just felt off, as if something was wrong with my body.
I went to my doctor, and he told me it was my own fault, and that I was lying to him. The way doctors and society in general treats people who are overweight is disgusting. Yes, there are some people who eat too much, never exercise, and don’t take care of themselves. Nevertheless, there are others, like me, who actually have a medical condition that causes the body to not function properly, with weight gain as a side effect. It took having a third miscarriage, and getting up to almost 300lbs, before I was finally diagnosed with PCOS.
Losing Weight: Round 1
Once I was diagnosed with PCOS, I was able to get on metformin, and really work at losing weight. I went from 300lbs, to 220lbs. It took two years, of eating low-carb, taking my meds, and working out five to six times a week. It was a lot of hard work, and there were some setbacks, but I felt so much better about myself. I still had a lot of work to do. I was able to keep the weight off for awhile, but I’d hit a plateau, and couldn’t seem to go any further.
I worked really hard on losing weight, and then, I miraculously got pregnant! For me, this meant that I couldn’t really work out as I had been. I didn’t care though, as we’d been trying to get pregnant for so long. During my pregnancy, I actually lost weight as I had hyperemesis gravidarum throughout my pregnancy, and after Aeneas was born, I was down to 200lbs! I never thought I would way less after having a child. It didn’t last long though. I had postpartum depression, and breastfeeding didn’t work out for us either. With both of these, as well as going from a job where I moved all the time, to one where I was sitting all day, I gained all the weight, and more, back.
As of today, I weight 259lbs (I’ve been working on losing weight since I started writing this post), and I want to get down to 167lbs. It’s going to take a lot of hard work, eating properly, and support from my family and friends. I really want, and need to do this. For my own health, and to be able to keep up with my son, I need to get healthy. In fact, right now I’m doing a DietBet with some fellow mamas who are working on losing weight. I’m doing ok so far! I’m down 8lbs from where I started, so woohoo! I just need to keep it up. My goal is to lose 8lbs a month (approximately 2lbs a week).
I’m working on cooking at home more often, and my goal is to keep my carb intake to 50 net carbs or less a day. I’m also working on getting in a minimum of 10,000 steps a day, and either going to the gym for 45min, or doing 30-45min of exercise at home four times a week.
My first short term goal is to get to 200lbs. That’s 59lbs that I need to lose, and I’m working on getting it done in seven months – so by the end of November. Once I’m there, I’ll set another goal. to get to 167lbs!
I’m planning on posting once a week on how I’m doing, my meal plan for the following week, the exercises I’m doing, and anything else that comes up. If you have any suggestions or things that you’ve done that have worked, I’d love to hear! I’m here for support if you’re on your own journey as well.